Next to me....

So here is the thing I came across this song today called Next to Me - Emeli Sande.

The lyrics go like this:

you won't find him drinking at the tables

rolling dice and staying out till 3

you won't ever find him being unfaithful

you will find him, you'll find him next to me

you won't find him trying to chase the devil

for money, fame, for power, out of grief

you won't ever find him where the rest go

you will find, you'll find him next to me


I would like to say that I think about our new home probably on a daily basis. I sort through magazines, websites, other renovation bloggers looking for ideas for the decor for the house. I think about kitchen sink sizes, dining table style(I would like to get a harvest table made) living room accents and pretty much anything else that has to do with the new home. But the funny part to all of this which is something I never mentioned before is that the first time we went to look at this house I hated it. I actually loathed it,  I cried about it, I yelled about it. I hated the idea of driving down a dirt road(800meters) to be exact. I hated the old style on the inside, the wall paper covering every wall. I hated the size of the house and layout. I hated the old windows and the creepy stairs that were falling apart and on top of all that I hated all of the dead bugs. I just could not see pass this. So we moved on, we looked at more houses, we debated. We even put in some offers on different homes. One of which Branko woke up in the middle of the night and said out loud " I hate the shape of that land" and then went back to sleep. We knew in the morning that this was not the house for us especially if Branko was having nightmares about it. So after looking at least 10 houses Branko convinced me to go back to this "House on the Hill". To be more open minded to think pass the old décor and the bugs. To just give it another chance

Off we were another look at this house, our amazing real estate agent drove up to meet with us with her husband and son and we spent a good amount time at the house on this visit. Probably over an hour. We walked the first 1/4 of the land and we sat inside the house and discussed ways we could make this place our own. Branko promised that this could be our dream home and that he would do whatever it took to make it more special then it already had been. 

Here we are 3 months into owning the home and I am in love. The harder we work the more time we put into it and the time we get together working in the house has brought us much closer. Every time we are there we think about living in the new space. Sitting on our deck and having Sat morning coffee/tea. 

When I came across the song it reminded me of Branko and how he has always been "Next to Me".  

I don't go down this emotional road too often, I'm a tough girl who swears out loud and wears construction gloves now so don't get used to these kind of posts :)